Gratefulness

Finally made it to playtime at the rec center. As I look around I immediately notice all the pregnant ladies here and I realize that that is a stage of my life I'm not ready to see go by. I miss it. I'm ready for it. Maybe not my body but my mind and heart are. Perhaps that's why my pregnancies and deliveries are so painful and difficult....because I would have 10 kids. I believe I will grieve every stage of my life as it goes by. And boy does life fly by!

But I'm okay with that.

To me it means I've had a great and full life. I know every day is a blessing.
Psalms 144:4 says,

     People are like a vapor,
     their days like a shadow
     that disappears.

Before we left this morning Leila came out of the room with her blankie and asked to be picked up, so I sat and held her sleepy little body. 

I have clothes in the washer, clothes in the dryer ready to fold, clothes on the couch to put away, a pile of little people clothes to iron, beds to make, a shower to clean and we have to get ready to go.... But I'll hold you.

The bible says in James 4:14


     You do not know about tomorrow.
     What is your life like?
     For you are a puff of smoke
     that appears for a short time
     and then vanishes.

I'm always painfully aware of how fleeting life is. One of my goals as a parent is to help my children appreciate life and above all, to appreciate and love The One who gives us life. And if my birthing years are over.....well, on to the next stage!!